May 7th, 2023 7:24AM EST~gave up formatting on this one boys


man the anxiety pills they have me on are great and all but they sure do fuck with my sleep schedule like, a LOT. also once again i have no excuse for how long its been since i last updated this site, other than like...life, brah! shit is busy, i been trying to get my sleep on track, and figure out like, a work/play/exersize routine that doesnt fry my brain!! also recently reconnected with my dad, which has been great, although it would have been cool if he hadnt gotten mugged and almost stabbed to death before hand, thus inciting our reunion. he's fine, he had some internal bleeds but theyre healing well and he's in good spirits, and my dads always been a very healthy guy so im not super worried about him, but ive been PRETTY STRESSED to say the least. another stressfull but ultimately nice thing about reconnecting with my father is that i now know for a FACT that i have ADHD, im dyslexic AND im on the autism spectrum. WHICH AGAIN, WERE ALL THINGS I ALREADY SUSPECTED ABOUT MYSELF, OKAY? I JUST NEVER THOUGHT TO LIKE...HAVE IT CHECKED OUT. ANYWAY. its been overall nice to be able to put parts of myself and my personality and my weird little ticks and quirks into their proper little compartments in my mind, since finding out about all this, but i have to say its also kind of super stressfull? and kinda depressing sometimes?? like, oh this thing i always thought was just a weird little thing about me or something that i simply was bad at or needed to work on is actually because of my adhd/dyslexia/autism? oh ok haha *spirals a little bit just because i guess??* anyway yeah its been a ride lately, that and ive been just so goddamn busy with all of my rats! i have 8 of these little bastards!! WHY DID I THINK IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA TO IMMEDIATELY HAVE 8 RATS!? all freaking out aside, i love all of my sons but having THIS many is pretty tough, so i think ill let things chill for a while. ive also made the discovery that i really prefer the bigger standard boys to the smaller dwarf boys, which i was pretty shocked to realize cause i thought for sure the #foreverpuppy version of rats was definitely going to be unbeatable, but theres something so goddamn satisfying about holding a russet potato sized Boy. whatever happens, ill be sure to keep the rats page up to date on what boys i have and their names and such (which reminds me i super need to update their profiles with better pics and updated info...) till next time i remember to update this thing, yall have a good'n and take this pic of my son recovering from a minor boo boo